Actually, we're having mac 'n' cheese and grilled hot dogs for supper. That was a metaphor for how it's going. Anyways! Keeping up with my blog like a good little blogger! (Kayla, aren't you proud?) In my last blog, I talked about how I was going to get rid of my tendency to think thoughts that are very depressing, despondent, woeful, and other synonyms for sad. I actually meant it this time, and man, was it hard that first day. I couldn't do what I wanted for the weekend, I noticed that a certain girl I like was pretty good friends with another guy, I found out a certain girl I like got asked out by another guy, I found out that a certain girl I like is now going out with another guy (yeah, it was a pretty big deal to me, but I'm not bothered by it anymore) , and I'm sure there was something else that bugged me at the time.
I think that thing with the certain girl was actually what helped me along. Normally, I would have just thought about how that guy was a great guy and extremely likable so it's no wonder she picked him especially because I don't hang out with her that much.
But! After thinking for a while about looking in the mirror and changing myself for the better, I realized it was my fault. I wasn't hanging out with her (or a lot of other people, for that matter) and I pity myself often enough that I'm not at my happiest, funniest, most impressive self. Being a pessimist isn't all it's cracked up to be either (you know, the whole "you're always only pleasantly surprised" thing). Turns out, I was ignoring a lot of things, like the date I have with another girl I like, and how I ignored the fun I had throughout the day, like when I played soccer outside in the beautiful weather (finally) or heard something that cracked a smile. Also, My weekend plans were still on because I thought this weekend was May 2nd (which it's not), so I'm probably still good for that coffee shop band thing. 'S'awesome.
Yay! Jelly beans! Thanks, mom. My day is going great.
I should probably talk about what happened more recently. Today was Arbor Day at MLS, which was kinda lame because that's a free night wasted for dorming students and we don't get out of study halls on Sunday. Also, in the middle of the week makes a week so much easier. It was still nice, anyways. It was beautiful today and my mind appreciated the chance to justlisten to music for a while and do mindless labor (like picking up leaves or impressing girls) so that I could think about whatever dandy things I wanted.
We were actually using a friend's computer and speakers to listen to music. Not knowing what playlists he liked best, I just played all. I started dancing to one song with someone that was also not working. She said, "Ya know, the first time I heard this, I thought it was a guy singing." Turns out, I was dancing to Katy Perry singing "I Kissed a Girl and I Liked It".
The first time I kiss a girl, I'm going to start singing that song.
I think that thing with the certain girl was actually what helped me along. Normally, I would have just thought about how that guy was a great guy and extremely likable so it's no wonder she picked him especially because I don't hang out with her that much.
But! After thinking for a while about looking in the mirror and changing myself for the better, I realized it was my fault. I wasn't hanging out with her (or a lot of other people, for that matter) and I pity myself often enough that I'm not at my happiest, funniest, most impressive self. Being a pessimist isn't all it's cracked up to be either (you know, the whole "you're always only pleasantly surprised" thing). Turns out, I was ignoring a lot of things, like the date I have with another girl I like, and how I ignored the fun I had throughout the day, like when I played soccer outside in the beautiful weather (finally) or heard something that cracked a smile. Also, My weekend plans were still on because I thought this weekend was May 2nd (which it's not), so I'm probably still good for that coffee shop band thing. 'S'awesome.
Yay! Jelly beans! Thanks, mom. My day is going great.
I should probably talk about what happened more recently. Today was Arbor Day at MLS, which was kinda lame because that's a free night wasted for dorming students and we don't get out of study halls on Sunday. Also, in the middle of the week makes a week so much easier. It was still nice, anyways. It was beautiful today and my mind appreciated the chance to justlisten to music for a while and do mindless labor (like picking up leaves or impressing girls) so that I could think about whatever dandy things I wanted.
We were actually using a friend's computer and speakers to listen to music. Not knowing what playlists he liked best, I just played all. I started dancing to one song with someone that was also not working. She said, "Ya know, the first time I heard this, I thought it was a guy singing." Turns out, I was dancing to Katy Perry singing "I Kissed a Girl and I Liked It".
The first time I kiss a girl, I'm going to start singing that song.
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